So Many Thoughts

The last 2 months have flown by for me. On June 28th I decided that I’d had enough of being overweight and out of shape. So I weighed in and found that I was 315lbs. Almost 100lbs heavier than when I got out of the Army in 1999. That was a turning point for me. I got back into researching diet and fitness topics again and I made changes. I’ve stuck with those changes and I’m happy with outcome so far. As of 8/22 I am down to 293lbs. But I want more. My goal is to get to 10-12% bodyfat. I’ve never, ever been that low before and I realize now that it’s going to take time to get there. This new lifestyle is not a race but a marathon and I’m committed to the long haul.

I’ve had set backs. In fact last night I gave into a craving for pizza…Believe it or not after 5 slices of a Papa John’s large pizza my resolve is even stronger than it was before not to get back into that type of behavior. 2 months ago I would have put that entire pizza away without thinking twice. I threw the remaining 3 slices out and while I regret buying it, I think it was something I needed. These last 2 months have felt like a balancing act. Trying to focus and stay positive all the while wondering what would happen if I slipped up on at a time when I didn’t plan to slip (I usually take a meal on Saturday and make it a “cheat” meal..This has worked well for me usually but yesterday the craving as well as being down in the dumps about some other things just combined for the perfect storm”.

Looking back on it I know that I *can* commit to this new lifestyle. I’m not calling it a diet since that implies at some point I’m going back to my old eating habits and there’s no way that’s going to happen. I felt just miserable after eating that pizza and I realized that’s the way I’d been feeling for a *very* long time..Probably longer than I can recollect. Even when I was in the Army fitness was just something I had to do everyday. I resented it. I swore the day I got out was the last day that I would ever run. I’m not quite back to running yet simply because I want to lose a bit more weight so I don’t injure myself. But I’m looking at picking back up when I get down to the 265-270 range.

Everyone has bad days, it’s how you pick yourself up after the bad. After my pizza last night I woke up at 0500 and was at the gym and working out by 0530. Not something I’m going to do every day mind you..But it felt good to get back in there after my stumble. I know that I can do this and I’m more motivated than ever to continue. Will I have more bad days? Probably..But I can handle them and keep moving forward.

There’s going to be a couple of changes to my website. First off, I’m not going to be posting my daily workout’s anymore. In the beginning it really helped me to keep track of what I was doing as well as have some kind of external accountability. I will be putting a new page detailing my workouts and that will change as my workouts change. As for the accountability, I feel like I’m back to a point of self accountability. That doesn’t mean I will stop posting here. If I notice something about my eating habits or a particular day’s workout then I’ll note that here. I’ve found a ton of resources online to help me get back to this point. I’m going to start adding those to my blogroll so hopefully someone else can draw as much inspiration as I have from them. Plus it’s great for me because this blog will be like a big giant cheatsheet! πŸ™‚

Originally I started this blog with the hopes of turning into a motorcycle camping site. I will still be posting some motorcycle related things randomly (I’m signed up for a motorcycle camping course at REI tonight..See what I did there? πŸ˜‰ ) but I think this site will be taking a more generic life/fitness turn for a while.

Look for more frequent posts here and I hope that if you’re a lurker you will engage me with some comments πŸ™‚

1 thought on “So Many Thoughts”

  1. Nice segue!
    I can’t remember where I got it, but I used to have a nice quotation about exercise being a pretty good aid to dealing with “the blues.”

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