And Then There Were None…

Days that is…February 1st is upon us. Most of my co-workers have decided to take part in this health challenge and I’m stoked that they’re doing it! Hopefully between us all we have the motivation to keep everyone on track. So far only 2 of them have blogs so head on over and heckle support them.

Brandi
Scott

I wrote in my last post that despite all my planning and the motivation that I feel, I still felt uneasy. This afternoon I hit why I felt that and still do. I’m giving up my best friend. I’m giving up something that has always been there for me despite everything else. through breakups, through being sad. Nothing/no one makes me feel better than food does. Yes, I’m aware that this is only 90 days and then I can eat whatever the hell I want to in whatever quantity I want. One of my favorite quotes is “Food is for fuel, not fun”. I can’t rely on anything external to make me happy be it food, drink, exercise, etc..I need to find that happiness within me. So the question I have is, how does one do that??

Today was sort of a last hurrah for the last unhealthy lunch as a team. We went to my favorite place in the world, Cherry Bomb Grill. Below is a list of what I ate:

  • 1.5 crab cakes
  • 4 deviled eggs
  • 1 hangover burger (pepper jack cheese, bloody mary mayo, avocado, and an over-easy egg)
  • full order of fries
  • krispy kreme bread pudding
  • 2 large cokes

It’s been a really long time since I’ve eaten like that and that is an extremely heavy meal for lunch. I really thought I was going to throw up on the way back to the office. I wasn’t the only one that threw down but I spent the rest of the day feeling absolutely horrible and guilty for eating so much that I was physically ill. I’ve gotten to that point more times than I can remember. For the next 90 days I will not feel that way again! To be honest at 2324 I still feel sick from lunch…Not a good feeling..Not a good feeling at all..

Comments

  1. Mom says:

    Interesting entry. I hope you can find some other source of happiness during this 90 days. If I can do anything to help, let me know.
    Love you,
    Mom

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