Something Has Changed

I’ve written before about dealing with Depression and finally admitting to myself that I needed help. It took a while after all of that for something to actually make me want to get help. I realized that I didn’t want to feel like this anymore and because of the meds I had a glimpse into what could be. Talk therapy in conjunction with medication has really done wonders for me. I started seeing a therapist at the end of February and was doing 2 sessions a week because I was motivated to find a balance in life and I knew …

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A Quick Post

I’ve literally got 5 drafts saved as a follow up to my “Serious Post“. None of them feel right just yet. Maybe if I combine them all I’d have something…Anyway, this is just a quick update on how I’ve been feeling since then. In a word, Great. I’ve been going to therapy twice a week since the end of February and in that time I’ve really been able to use some Buddhist principles in my everyday life..Things make a lot more sense to me now. I will write more later but with the new theme in place I wanted to …

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Has The Time Come?

“There comes a time when one must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular, but he must take it because conscience tells him it is right.” Martin Luther King Jr. A lot of things going on around me have been weighing me down. I feel like a tipping point will be reached sooner rather than later and that decisions will have to be made, sides will have to be chosen and lines will have to be drawn. I really, really hope I’m wrong.

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A Pretty Serious Post

I stopped making resolutions years ago simply because I never followed through with them. The last several years have progressively gotten worse for me, mostly due to my own actions and inactions. The latest shooting in CT has brought to the forefront something that I’ve dealt with for years, mental health. More appropriately the stigma associated with mental health. The idea that someone is weak because they deal with depression, PTSD or any other mental health issue. I want that stigma gone so and sitting on the sidelines for most of my life hasn’t helped so if I want the …

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The Next Post

Turns out that posting my last entry did help somewhat…Thank you to those who sent me messages of support..I didn’t reply to any of them simply because I didn’t know what to say..As I stated I wasn’t looking for a pat on the back or an “atta boy”. But I do thank you for the kind words.

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The Guilt

Everyone has times they’re down..Holidays, tragic events, even rain…My worst times revolve around 2 days. Veteran’s Day and Memorial Day. I’ve never written about this and never even told anyone before but I feel the need to get it out of my head. I don’t know if I’ll make this post live but I just need to get it out.. First, some background.

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The Storm

Yesterday a storm rolled through my community and knocked down several trees and broke off some huge limbs. Power was off at the house when I got home so I decided to go out and grab a bite to eat. On the way back home I stopped to get gas and noticed the credit card readers were down..They were down at 4 of the 5 stations I stopped at. No big deal right? Well, I don’t carry cash and I haven’t in several years. Had I not found a station that would let me use my debit card I probably …

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Be Prepared Part I

After the recent storms in VA and IL it got me thinking about what it was like without power after Hurricane Katrina. I was completely and totally unprepared. I literally left my apartment with a few pictures, some clothes and family stuff. Towards the end of August is the hottest part of the year in MS and we were without power for a little over 2 weeks. No A/C, no running water. If it hadn’t been for USM providing us with meals and 2 bottles of water at every meal I’m not sure what I would’ve done. Unlike some of …

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Self Doubt

For the last 3 months or so I’ve been working on a project that I’m almost ready to announce to the world. It’s been a long three months but things are starting to fall into place. I should be happy, excited, whatever…But instead all that I feel is raging self doubt..I don’t know enough about what I’m doing, I’m going to mess up some paperwork, or that I’m going to flat out fail. I’m going to push through it simply because I have to. I may fail, I may fall flat on my face but I think about how I …

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